I don’t get it… What am I putting out there that makes guys think it’s ok to treat me like shit? Is there some kind of signal or pheromone I give off? I don’t like game playing but it’s really hard when it seems like everyone else is all in and I have no idea what the rules are… And I’m fucking up, big time. I thought I was supposed to be myself and put myself out there, take chances. Getting harder and harder to do that when it seems like every time I open up I just get a smack across the face from the universe. I just don’t get it.